My return to work is drawing nigh. I was quite worried about this but now I feel differently. I am looking forward to a little less stress and the odd opportunity for downtime. It will also make a nice change to wee alone. I will of course miss my gorgeous children a lot, but I am fortunate to have a busy job that makes it unlikely I will think about them.
I took a year off on maternity with my son. This time I am returning after 8 months (largely to make my life easier at work). This means it is a rather different matter leaving my baby. My son was only feeding once a day when I left him. My daughter is mostly breastfed and just has little bits of food. So, it seems I am entering the world of expressing.
I have expressed before on occasion, but not regularly like I will now. However, the new realm for me is expressing in public. It's one thing getting my boobs out, which will inevitably be hidden by a baby's head. It's another to be milking myself. The truth is that I will have a secret room to go and lock myself away in, so nobody will see me. This is very important as I am a teacher and I would most likely get fired for that level of exposure.
I am a bit concerned about the noise of expressing. The click of the handle. When I know that just the other side of the door are hoards of screaming teenagers. I am also concerned about transporting my breast pump to and from my expressing room (in a closed cool bag I am thinking) without anybody knowing what I have been up to. And hiding the accoutrement's from my colleagues. It will also be interesting to see how much of a drain on my time it is, given that in the past I have chosen to work through all these breaks.
I am sure it will be fine. But I hadn't really thought about this side of the world of breastfeeding. Watch this space!